I was watching your video called “It’s Only A Dream,” which was a weird mix of horror and comedy. You have this monologue between yourself where it’s very comedy-driven, but at the end it gets very, very serious. There is a suicide note and kind of this idea that you’re being haunted. Where does that idea come from?
That was the actually Halloween video that I did, so that’s what that was inspired from. That’s what I like about YouTube; it really allowed me to open up like different elements of myself that I didn’t even know was there, so anytime I’m doing like a skit like “It’s Only A Dream,” like you really got to explore some dark parts of you to bring something like that out, you know what I’m saying? And I just really try my best to get whatever’s up here on camera. YouTube has really opened up a lot of different elements of myself that I never even knew was there, you know what I mean?
It was kind of a departure because you’re a super upbeat, super light-hearted guy. Was there really that darkness within you as, not an actor, but a person?
Yeah I think for any person to be a good actor or convincing actor, you have to pull that from somewhere, you know what I mean? It has to be — some part of you has to be what you’re trying to portray, so like if you’re trying to portray yourself as a drug dealer, it has to be a hunger inside of you to want money to actually play that, so I feel like any part that you’re trying to play, if you really wanted to be convincing you got to draw from the real stuff, you know what I’m saying? Like when I first started to get into the acting game, this director named Donald Gray, he always used to tell me, “Make it real,” and when I was going through a scene I never understood what that meant, but he was just like, “Draw from a real place” to make it as convincing, to make it as real with what’s going on as you can, you know what I mean? So he said the only time that acting looks like acting is when you’re trying to act. That’s why he said “Make it real,” so that’s what I’m trying to do everytime I do one of those type of skits.
Are there any actors mainstream or otherwise that you really admire?
Oh yeah. My top, just off the top of my head: Al Pacino, Denzel, Ben Foster — Ben Foster is a really good actor, I feel like he’s so underrated, but Ben Foster is like one of my top favorite actors of all time, so if I had to name three off the top of my head, definitely Al Pacino, Denzel and Ben Foster.
Ben Foster, he’s absolutely underrated. He’s an incredible actor. Switching gears, I have to talk about the “G.O.O.D. H.E.A.D.” and“Build a B*tch” T-shirts — these are two crazy ideas for T-shirts. Where are you getting the ideas for these shirts?
I really don’t know. My whole writing process, I stand in the mirror and I just start talking, and stuff that makes me laugh I write it down and I say, “I’m going to use this for a video,” so the “G.O.O.D. H.E.A.D.” concept was completely just hours of talking to myself in the mirror and then that idea came up. Same thing with the “Build a B*tch Workshop” T-shirt. How great would it be if you could build your perfect dream women, you know what I’m saying? You got that whole teddy bear thing, so “Build a B*tch” just came out of nowhere.
And for reference, the “G.O.O.D. H.E.A.D.” T-shirt is an acronym which stands for all the things you wanted in a women which was gorgeous, obedient, et cetera. In all your videos — and maybe some of it is a persona, maybe a lot of it is actually you — but you’re throwing around terms like “b*tch” and “ho,” but I see in the comments you do have a big female audience. Do you ever worry that you’re alienating your female audience by using derogatory terms for women?
No, because like the girls that embrace me they look past that — you know, the name-calling — they pay attention to the message, you know what I’m saying? Those are the fans that I like, the female audience that I like that can get over all the name-calling and all the other stuff to actually hear the message. Stop hearing what you want to hear, and hear what I’m saying, you know what I’m saying? Get past all the b*tches and hoes and stuff — that’s just the way that I talk. The way that I talk in my videos is the way guys talk to each other, you know know what I’m saying? So that is the way I look at my camera is one of the homeboys I’m talking to about whatever I’m feeling, so I don’t feel like I have to edit myself or not say certain things because I’m scared to lose people. If you want to leave, leave, you know what I’m saying? The thing that gets me is people will complain in comments but you’re still watching my videos, so you know, whatever. It is what it is.
There is this kind of idea in YouTube culture that if you’re doing videos you have to keep it really politically correct or you have to make sure you’re keeping your audience, not saying anything to offend your audience. Shay Carl, he posted a vlog where he was speaking about how he wanted to be more open and not worry about what people were going to think. Do you think being totally open is a really good method to take?
See that’s the thing; it’s because we get wrapped up in what society wants, you know what I’m saying? What’s accepted by social standards and stuff like that. Just be you, be whoever you want, because there is always going to be somebody who likes you, there is always going to be somebody who doesn’t like you, so just do what you want to do. Whatever that is, just open up! Say whatever you want, you know what I’m saying? It’s really that simple, so I know at the beginning when I started making videos and once I started to get popular, I started to be conscious of some of the things that I was saying or my subject matter and stuff like that, but after a while you get to that point where you got to remember: who are you doing this for in the first place? I started YouTube because I like to make videos. I make the type of stuff that I would want to see if I wasn’t creating content, you know what I mean? So I make everything from my standpoint, so the way that I talk, the way that I act in the video, that’s what I’d want to see if I was just, you know, a regular part of the audience. So I just feel like anybody that wants to open up or anybody who’s afraid to not say what they want to say because they might lose people, just you got to let that go and just be the person the person that you want to be.